I better get started...

I work for a super micro manager of a boss who tries to squeeze every ounce out of me at the office. The past few days I have come home exhausted and just climb into bed with nothing left in me. Sometimes I even miss dinner. And yet I have an excellent cook as a wife who whip up some of the most sumptuous meals a man could dream of. We have talked about opening up a restaurant from time to time and friends have mostly encouraged us to do so, but I am ambivalent about the thought of sharing my wife. But that's another topic...

I said I work for this slave-driver, but guess what, I managed to get a couple of hours off because a meeting with a client ended early. I sneaked home and took a long nap! When I awoke, I watched one of the most incredibly funny and inspiring movie I've ever seen in a long time. While watching it, I had my laptop with me (yeah, I am an obsessive multi-tasker), and was surfing at the same time. Mostly, blog-hopping.

Then, I thought I should start adding to my solitary blog today, so to give me inspiration, I started by blog-hopping and found some really interesting sites. I resonated with Messy Christian's blog and I must confess that my heart raced as I clicked through her thoughts, rants, and musings! I must say I have fallen in love! If only I were single, I will track her down! Seriously though, reading her blogs, and hopping from hers to others (such as i took the red pill and de se) have made me fell less lonely in this world. I cried, I laughed (not only at the antics of the kung-fu socceroos, but also through identifying with what Messy was feeling and sharing. I see that there are other like-minded bloggers out there as well. I shall explore them in coming days & weeks...

I went to one of those Christian liberal arts colleges but some of the folks there nearly lynched me alive and cruxify me upside down for expressing some of my opinions. I was accused of being a non-believing heathen, a Buddhist and a renegade backslider, although there were others who encourage me in my journey and to be myself.

Although I still go to church, I am growing disillusioned by church life. Of late, I have been wanting to shun the church, wanting to take a break, but did not have the courage to do so. A couple of my kids love the church and they want to go, and I would like to encourage them. I do not want them to lose faith. A couple of the others are struggling with their faith, and I want to encourage them to carry on, but then again, perhaps, I need to show them that it is okay to struggle and that I struggle too. Not that I struggle with my faith in God per se, but I struggle with my faith nonetheless.

I am glad to find that there are others out there who share my journey and it will be fun to connect with them in coming days.