BlogExplosion is interfering with my life!
There is one thing I do not complain about BlogExplosion. It sure delivered on its promise: to explode this site with visitors. So, before BlogExplosion, I had maybe 2 or 3 visitors to my site a day, and on a good day 10 or 15. After BlogExplosion, I have 100, sometimes 200 a day.
But the cost?
It has sucked me into this insidious 30-second finger tap-dance. Yes, I did find some sites among the hundreds I have visited that I really enjoyed reading and would consider going back, and yes, I did get new visitors to my sites, and quite a number who have commented on different posts. For that I am really grateful.
But, I also think that it has (1) changed the way I spend my time, (2) perhaps, also, changed a few of my formerly regular visitors, and more importantly, (3) changed the way I blog!
I think now I am blogging less, because well, after surfing, I don't have much time left! And, because I don't have much time to blog, I have not been blogging on all the different topics I intended to when I started this blog. Plus, I have also been neglecting the housekeeping aspects of running my blog.
So, it begs the question: why am I blogging? Do I blog so that I get visitors, 90% of whom who have no interest in what I have to say, and can't wait to get out of my site, or do I blog for me?
Actually that is the key reason I started this blog. For me. But, of course, part of the "me" reason, I suppose, is also this ego-driven craving for an audience--the need to have an interaction with the outside world. Perhaps, that is the problem.
On the one hand, there is a need to know that people are reading this stuff and that they are responding to it. Yet, on the other hand, my conscious mind claims that I am doing this because I want to do it. And that it is for my own processing of what has gone on in my life, and for putting my own thoughts down, and for my own therapy. So, what is it? I don't really know now. Do you have the same dilemma, especially those of you BE-addicts? Should we go to our 12-step meeting now?
In anycase, this is what I am going to do in for at least the next seven days. I am going to resist the temptation to surf for credits, even if that means a reduction of visitors to my site, and I am going to spend the next week, writing and visiting blogs like I used to do before BlogExplosion, with the exception of also visiting the blogmarked sites as well. Let's see how long I can withstand the temptation not do the click-clickety thingy...