Memories Overcoming Emotions
my God.Actually, I woke up this morning feeling rather rested, which is surprising as I hardly slept at all last night. My current situation stem from recent events, mostly at work (you can read it here and here), and precipitated by my being fired, or as a friend so aptly puts it, released from an intolerable situation.
My soul is downcast within me;
therefore I will remember you
from the land of the Jordan,
the heights of Hermon-from Mount Mizar.
Because of many different reasons, I must find another position pretty soon, and I mean, really pretty soon.
Over the past couple of days, while outwardly seeming to be evenly keeled, I can't help but feel this gloomy downcast spirit coming over me. Yet, this morning, while physically tired, I feel uplifted that God is an incredible God, mostly because I deliberately recall what He has done, and what I know about Him and have experienced about the life of faith. I may not feel it, I may feel fear and trepidation, but I choose to recall His grace, His power and His care and provision for me and my family.
Many times, our current situation, physically, emotionally or spiritually may be gloomy, but we can use the power of our memories to recall how faithful and awesome our God is. I can't wait to go to church and worship with the rest of the congregation. I may be feeling vulnerable right now, but I know God has got me in His everlasting arms.
Psalm 42: 3-4:
My tears have been my food
day and night,
while men say to me all day long,
"Where is your God?"
4 These things I remember
as I pour out my soul:
how I used to go with the multitude,
leading the procession to the house of God,
with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
among the festive throng.